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Katherine Wu's avatar

Congratulations! I'm not religious in the slightest but since having kids of my own (I have 3, ages 6, 4, and 20 months) I have very much converted to the view that every baby is a miracle.

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Probably going to get overly personal and you may guess who I am from this post. But.

Gosh Misha, your thoughts are so resonant. You and I land on entirely different ends of this spectrum of how we manage these conflicting desires, but I too struggle with a longing for extended family and connection (I am extremely close to my family) with a desire for self-determination and curiosity about the world and personal fulfillment on individualistic terms that has been expressed through career, and a model for forging an entirely new life with an immigrant grandparent. I am totally disinterested in pursuing religion, but very interested in pursuing family formation. In another life I would have loved to have 3 kids. In terms of the "atomized Anglo," I am an academic who has moved all over for my career. My husband has a similarly "global" career and it was a leap of faith to take advantage of an incredible opportunity that brought us to Australia.

A combination of life circumstances--divorce, not getting partnered again until my mid-30s, pursuing a rewarding but male dominated career that--while is getting better for women-- is still intrinsically tricky to navigate as a woman, and some biological realities, means that I probably won't have more than one (if we are so lucky!). I don't regret my decisions--I have had (and continue to have) a full and rewarding life whether children are in the picture or not. But I respect people who have taken the plunge to make different decisions especially in light of all the angst millennials have about child rearing and the opportunities lost that is intrinsic with each choice we make.

I recognize some aspects of my life would have been different with different choices and others are totally out of my control. The positive side to my situation at present is that we may be able to hedge and have it both ways a bit (as you describe people must, but that's not always a bad thing). Having the finances to travel to see overseas family and bandwith continue to individually rewarding demanding careers while still having a small family is one way to go about it, while missing out on all the richness that comes from a larger family. This is in many ways a less brave choice than the one you and your wife have made (although perhaps one that was never in the cards anyway--who knows), and a much more conventional one for left leaning members of the professional class like myself. So I applaud you and your wife for going all in.

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